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Seeing the &#34;Light&#34;
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<div class="post-meta"><span title='2025-12-25 11:26:04 +0000 UTC'>December 25, 2025</span>&nbsp;·&nbsp;2 min&nbsp;·&nbsp;Iman Alipour
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<div class="post-content"><p>I have a strong hunch that I made it. I beat my MDD. I&rsquo;m finally happy! I&rsquo;m happy for being single, for being who I am, for doing what I do. I can cherish every moment of my life now.</p>
<p>Currently I&rsquo;m sitting in Hamburg&rsquo;s CCH, being an Angel in disguise. ;D</p>
<p>I could not land myself any shifts before 1600, so I have to sit around and wait, and blog.</p>
<p>I also want to talk about some random thing that happened yesterday. It was me and a colleague in office. I suspected he&rsquo;s been wanting to talk to me about&hellip; well&hellip; something, but he was too cautious, as if I would screw him over? I have to clue to be honest. He insisted he had no idea I knew why he was saying that he was saying, but in the end I could see we both knew what we were talking about.</p>
<p>He kinda talked about my view on relationships and dating, the meaning behind it, and my future plans. He then told me to &ldquo;give time to time&rdquo;. So&hellip; yea. Idk. She will probably talk to me about this as time goes on. I don&rsquo;t want to feel anxious though, it should not matter what the outcome is. I should not count on anything, or start counting my chickens before they hatch.</p>
<p>Another funny thing that happened was that a friend of mine wanted to introduce a potential match, but then he kinda scewed away from it. I have no idea why, but since I tend to assume the worst in things, I should not thinnk about it.</p>
<p>As time goes by, and as I become more experienced, I feel more relieved.</p>
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