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+date = 2026-05-03T03:26:09Z
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+I know, I know.  I've been lacking updates. I'm so so sorry. I will try to summerize what I've been up tp in the past few months.
+
+Up until the middle of March, I've been taking care of the last bits of coursework I had to do during my prep phase. And now I'm done with that all together.
+
+I took ML in cysec which was very much aligned to the type of research I do. They try to get around IDS, and I try to get around censorship setup which is pretty much the same idea. I learned so so incredibly much from the course. It was awesome! I then had a block seminar called Routerlab in which I just did very well. It was fun in the sense that we got to touch and use real hardware. We also did so much that I didn't know much about. Though no mail server for me unfortunately. 
+
+I was then approached by a colleague who's research needed a bit of push to get to the IMC deadline, and we pushed "HARD". We submitted the paper with so much chaos I would say. But we did it.
+
+Now I wonder, both my research projects that I've been working on feel like there are more advanced than what we submitted, then we am I not drafting papers for them?! I will talk to my advisor about this. :)
+
+I also kinda started a new project, or at least we have floated the idea of, which sounds exciting. I would be working with one of my favorite group members. A true nerd! :)
+
+I will try to be more consistant throughout May by providing updates. Please cross your fingers for me! :D
+
+
+---
+
+{{< sigdl >}}

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+This month started with me setting up a deadline for Conext student workshop. 
+I wanted to submit something not only to get the chance to attend a nice conference, but to create a network, meet researchers, and to get a chance to present my work and get feedback on it. 
+I also worked on my code-base, finally making everything work by replacing Jool with clatd for performing CxLAT. 
+This darn thing wasted so much of my time! 
+I did learn a bit along the way, but oh well. 
+Such is life!
+
+Overall not the most productive month, but one reason for it is that I have't really had a real vacation in a long time. 
+I will be taking a 10 day vacation next month just to reset, and gain back my power. 
+I cross my fingers for the month ahead!
+
+My social life has been becoming better too. 
+I've been trying to attend more ZiS events to meet people, make new connections, and to have fun! 
+My depression is a serious issue. 
+I also have anxiety disorder that I'm talking with my therapist about. 
+I will most likely start taking SSRIs once again. 
+Idiot me was cutting it when the catasrophe in February happened and did not think twice to keep taking them. 
+I'm really glad I was able to recover, though it was not easy at all, it did work out.
+
+I do think there is bright nice future ahead of me; I just need to keep on trucking and not worry too much. 
+Things will workout!
+
+---
+
+{{< sigdl >}}

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+date = 2025-11-30T07:53:40Z
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+# 4th
+Again, let's setup some goals for the month.
+- Literature review
+- Keeping up with my coursework
+- Working on my codebase
+- Getting healthier diet and excercise-wise
+
+# 30th
+I did a bit of literature review, it's still lacking unfortunately. 
+
+Coursework is ok-ish. I've been trying to work on assignements and understand them.
+
+I rewrote the whole codebase, now we have a modularized design that should be easier to add to.
+
+I've been eating more and more healthy, excercise is still lacking. I'll get to that later. 
+
+---
+
+{{< sigdl >}}

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+date = 2025-10-31T08:40:43Z
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+# 1st
+Ok, let's start the month by declareing some goals and agendas.
+
+What do I want to do this month?
+- Finish previous semester.
+- Pick the last of the course work for my prep phase.
+- Finalize the CoNEXT student workshop paper.
+- Finish my second RIL.
+- Start my 3rd and last RIL.
+- Learn more Go to become more comfortable with it, but how do I set this as a measureable goal?
+- More literature review, persumabely all of FOCI related papers this month.
+- Work on my codebase:
+    1. Do code cleaning
+    2. Add comments for code
+    3. Start working on ICMP stuff
+- More socializing! :-)
+- A fun pet project? Maybe with Go? Maybe with 3d printer? Idk.
+- Enhance your routines and add exercise to it please! 
+
+Alright. Now that the goals are set, let's start the month strong! 
+My last exam for pervious semester will be on October 7th. 
+I have done 74 ECTS, another 6 will be my last RIL.
+If they give me Router Lab, 4 of it would count as ungraded along with an advance course such as either NN, ML sec or EML I would be done with the requirements for my prep phase. 
+I then just need to do my QE for which I should submit my first paper for which I'm doing work!
+
+I have started to take SSRIs again. 
+I used to take them before I came to Germany to start my PhD, but after coming here things were going really well for many months, and I wanted to cut the medication. 
+I was taking more than just SSRIs actually, and my psychiatrist agreed to cut all other three medications but advised me to keep taking my SSRI. 
+After being all happy and things working very well, we started to cut the last piece of the puzzle. 
+We agreed to reduce the dosage by 0.25% of the max and wait for one month. 
+Things were going really well for the first two and a half month, and then it happened. 
+The catastrophe that put me in my worst mental and physicall position happened to me. 
+It's not something I want to talk about in my blog, well at least for now, but I've tried to talk about it with my closest friends. 
+It's so sad that things happened the way they did. 
+I never really fully recovered. 
+But... time has passed. 
+Almost 8 months now. 
+I should not have continued to cut my medication, but I did. 
+I damaged myself badly by being stubborn. 
+My brother who knew everything insisted that I should continue the usage, but I didn't listen. 
+My parents didn't know anything, but could see thier happy son turning into the saddest, most depressed thing of all time. 
+I was scared of my own shadow for more than one month. 
+I eventually started to go out, but seeing some certain people made me uncomfortable. 
+This is another thing I haven't been able to figure out. 
+In the end, I just endured pain, a lot of pain. 
+I'm glad I didn't break, but I do think most people would've. 
+To deal with this pain, I decided to take many courses. 
+Cure pain with more pain. 
+What a fool I was. 
+I just tore myself up mentally and added much more unneeded stress. 
+
+Did I mention I didn't show up in office for 6 weeks? 
+And that when I came back I was hit again with things I didn't understand? 
+Sometimes in life shit happens, but this was a whole new level. 
+I don't know how much of this I want to talk about publicly, but I do want to just say that I was hurt really badly. 
+I've been trying to just lay low, stick to myself, and stay the hell out of trouble. 
+
+# 3rd
+Today is the German unity day, and we have a long weekend ahead! 
+Other than that, last night was one of the most fantabolous days of my life. 
+I'm feeling more content and secure. 
+I'm feeling true happiness. 
+I don't know how much the SSRI is affecting me, but I know one thing for sure. 
+I'm just like I used to be 9 months ago. 
+Just as jolly, positive, and feeling like I'm on top of the world. 
+Thinking about it a bit more, I do think I'm being a bit less passionate about my work. 
+What could be the reason? Different priorities? Nah. I really love my research and care about it. 
+I think it's just that there is no pressure on me, and no deadline. 
+I will try to set small deadlines for myself and force myself to be more productive. 
+Oh, and the SSRI adverse effects are visible! Yeah... But it's going to be alright, I'm sure of it.
+I have an exam I need to prepare for on 7th, but I've been procrastinating. I should plan my days and stick to it. Hell yes.
+
+# 5th
+My student workshop paper to CoNEXT '25 was rejected. 
+It got one weak accept and one weak reject, with both reviewers claiming to have somewhat familiarity with the topic. 
+
+First review (wa) provided two suggestions for improving the work. 
+However, as this was a workshop paper, the goal was to talk about the research in the presentation and afterwards fine-tune details. 
+
+Second review (wr) asked for more details. 
+In the end they suggested only focusing on one approach and it's evaluation. 
+This kinda defeated the purpose of what I was trying to do, to provide "tools". 
+
+Another thing they mentioned was how ML-based traffic analysis can be used to detect evasion. 
+This is indeed something I like to work on and look at in the near future. 
+
+# 7th
+Stressful day. 
+I had my last exam, the exam for Interactive systems that I did not attend the main exam for. 
+I tried to study over the weekend, but some weird things happened throughout the weekend, making my very distracted mind even more distracted. 
+I don't know how I did, but I'm glad I did the exam. 
+Hopefully I did alright, although I kinda do know some of the mistakes I've made, which is a really bad sign... 
+I hope I won't have to take another extra course in the next semesters, that would just be annoying. 
+I really do hope so. 
+
+# 8th
+I'm back at work, still very distracted with life. 
+I do need to do literature review, expand my framework, and focus on my work. 
+It's a Wednesday unfortunately, meaning I have my German class until 9:30, which today it lasted until 9:45, and then we have cookies at 14:00. 
+I hope I can get myself together and start being productive again. 
+
+# 9th
+I will be doing literature review today. 
+Yesteday I didn't manage to get myself together. Drat. 
+There will be a nice social event later today too. 
+I can rest and socialize with my group's amazing people! 
+It'll be fun! :)
+
+Another fun thing is that I will get my very own physical GFW box today. 
+It's probably the most majestic thing that could've happened? 
+The reason for it is that a month ago there was a leak for GFW. 
+Lucky us I guess.
+
+# 13th
+Last week was again not a productive week. 
+I will start to plan my days from now on. 
+The important things are literature review, working on the code base, and looking at the box a bit. 
+Unfortunately the new semester also starts from today. 
+I'll be having one, at most two courses. 
+
+# 17th
+Another unproductive week. 
+I think this was the worst one actually. 
+I can't focus on reading the papers, I get distracted easily or lose interest. 
+Tobias suggested USENIX's 3-slide slide deck to enhance my focus, I'll give it a try. 
+
+I also need to address the elephant in the room, and start working on the codebase. 
+
+I also need to look at the GFW files more, and try to find useful stuff there. 
+
+But first I need to work on HTDN's papers, and craft the slides. That is the highest priority on my list. I'll do it. 
+
+---
+
+# 31st
+It went by. 
+It went by quickly. 
+I wasn't able to pick myself up this month, but I won't let it happen in the following. 
+I want to be truthful, so I won't hide anything. 
+the only thing is I should've let myself grief a bit, and I did. I'm proud of it. It's fine. 
+For next month, I will start strong, try to get myself together, and pick myself up. I will make progress. 
+I promise. 
+
+Also I think there is no point in me ranting everyday or every once in a while in my PhD journey posts? Maybe it's not a bad thing. The problem is I don't have much to present, and that's why this is the content. Idk if I change the structure or not, but for now it is what it is. 
+
+Ok, let's set some goals for next month in advance, then we can see how good we did. 
+- I want to work on ICMP stuff and make it work nicely.
+- I want to do more literature review, maybe read all 2025 and 2024 censorship papers. Cross your fingers for this.
+- I need to keep up with my courses, including the German class. 
+- I might work more on the GFW leaked data, but I think it's not a priority for me for now. So... scrap this last one. 
+
+{{< sigdl >}}

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+date = 2025-09-30T09:48:21Z
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+I started the month by finalizing my draft for Conext Student workshop. 
+Let's cross our fingers and hope things work out and that it gets accepted. 
+Notification should arrive on 25th, and I'd have until 30th to do the camera ready stuff which should be plenty of time.
+
+I did a vacation from 6th until 15th for a total of 10 days by taking 6 days off. 
+I visited my parents after 13 months(!), and also my brother after more than two years. 
+We had so much fun! 
+I did a bunch of sight-seeing in Istanbul, tried out yummy foods and sweets, many different fishes, and snorkled in Antalya. 
+What a delightful trip it was. 
+I do have to get used to this as this is the sole way I will most probably see my parents from now on, unless they want to travel to somewhere else or visit me here. 
+Now that my brother also has his greencard, we can travel together and see eachother more often too! 
+
+Surprise surprize, the notification did not come and it's the last day of the month. 
+Ever since I came back from vacation I tried to catch up with everything, did my ML re-exam, and setup all different cool things I talked about in my blog. 
+I've been waiting for the notification to get started with the camera-ready process to make sure I have enough time to study for my next and last exam on 7th of October... 
+Drat!
+
+I will probably do more literature review this last day of the month, and start working on the code base from next month. 
+I should do a lot more literature review to be caught up with whatever that's been done so far. 
+
+My social life has been much more exciting too. 
+I've been socializing a lot more and have made many new friends. 
+Some other exciting things have also been hapening that I don't have the courage to write about now. ;) 
+Buuuuuut... I will probably write about them at some point if things go the way I hope theuy would. 
+Just remember Wed 24th of September 2025 and Sunday 28th of same month and year. :)
+
+And with that, that's my September in a nutshell. 
+I will probably start writing through the month and then turn the draft into a post from now on. 
+That way it would look like a story!
+
+---
+
+{{< sigdl >}}

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+date = 2026-06-23T20:00:07Z
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+Ok, it's been so so so long! I haven't been writing, once again, because I've been too busy with fixing my life. 
+Let me summerize these past many months:
+
+- I finished my coursework for my prep phase
+- I was added to a colleagues project and we submited it to IMC
+- I submitted a poster to TMA, and I will be present it at the end of this month (June)
+- I branched my main project, IP over anything, into application layer, added steganography to it, and made it ready to be submited to S&P, but due to some complications, we decided to skip this deadline and aim for USENIX at the end of Augsust.
+- I am a tutor at data networks, and I think I'm doing a pretty good job :) at least I hope so! I realized how much I love teaching, and interacting and explaining things to students.
+
+
+
+---
+
+{{< sigdl >}}