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title = 'Seeing the "Light"'
date = 2025-12-25T11:26:04Z
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I have a strong hunch that I made it. I beat my MDD. I'm finally happy! I'm happy for being single, for being who I am, for doing what I do. I can cherish every moment of my life now. 

Currently I'm sitting in Hamburg's CCH, being an Angel in disguise. ;D

I could not land myself any shifts before 1600, so I have to sit around and wait, and blog. 

I also want to talk about some random thing that happened yesterday. It was me and a colleague in office. I suspected he's been wanting to talk to me about... well... something, but he was too cautious, as if I would screw him over? I have to clue to be honest. He insisted he had no idea I knew why he was saying that he was saying, but in the end I could see we both knew what we were talking about. 

He kinda talked about my view on relationships and dating, the meaning behind it, and my future plans. He then told me to "give time to time". So... yea. Idk. She will probably talk to me about this as time goes on. I don't want to feel anxious though, it should not matter what the outcome is. I should not count on anything, or start counting my chickens before they hatch. 

Another funny thing that happened was that a friend of mine wanted to introduce a potential match, but then he kinda scewed away from it. I have no idea why, but since I tend to assume the worst in things, I should not thinnk about it. 

As time goes by, and as I become more experienced, I feel more relieved.


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{{< sigdl >}}
